Before I started blogging, I would write all my sad stories in the Microsoft & saved it in a file because I'm afraid you'd find my blog but now I'm not afraid of you reading nor everyone else. This blog is a secret, my boyfriend doesn't know I blog about him & one day after everything's done, I'd ask him to read my blog & show him that I'm one hell of a strong girl. I've overcomed with so many shits you've put me through, all the pain & I'd actually blog about it. Maybe at that time, it's too late for him to make any changes but oh well, at least he'd appreciate my patience towards him.

For now, I don't have the guts to exposed this blog to him yet not because I'm scared because after everything's over & done with, at least a prove of saying I've been strong for I don't know how many months/ years to come.
I may look like I'm giving up now but even if I am, he wouldn't give up on me.